Today, we celebrated our angels 1st birthday. It was a day filled with many, many thoughts of him. Some sad thoughts, some happy thoughts, just alot of reminiscing about him. We laughed, we cried and most importantly, we thanked God for our time with His son. He was a gift, actually, he is a gift that keeps giving to all who know him everyday. We celebrated his birth at his graveside (I thank God daily that His earthly body is resting in a place full of our families heritage!), we released 12 balloons and prayed. His godmommie Servanie came down to share in this time with us. She said to me, "Lil Will does not want you to be sad all the time, it is OK to be happy and get back to normal." I definitely know, William wants us to be joyous and always remember what his obedience to our Father has taught us. Somedays, I am just sad! But, it is getting easier as the days go by. So today, Father we thank you for allowing us to parent Your son. We shall never take for granted the most precious gift of Prince William, yes! He is no longer Lil Will to us, he is William, our forever guardian angel. We love him and know he is resting in your arms. Amen.
Wow! I cant believe it has been a year. I am so amazed at you and your husbands dedication to release (balloons) every month, to face the grave knowing what lies there. But Im so glad you guys know where he truly lies! You are an awesome mother. You are so caring, devoted and diligent when it comes to the memory of your son. Sometimes I know it seems so unfair and then God reminds me... He is soverign and He knows his children better than me. There was a time I thought it wasnt good to continue visiting his grave and that you guys should let go. But then some months ago I realized that is what you are doing (releasing). OUR FATHER conveyed to me the special bond and connection the grew in the short time you and Prince Will were together and you need to do this... not to be "normal" or go back to the old Sequita (she was not a mother) but to walk this new life out. Just like Mary continued without Jesus physically there you have to do the same. Im sure she had her method of getting through each year, month, day, or moment and what you are doing is healing your broken heart. Broken because a true mother always loves her children. Keep the faith my sister wholeness is around the corner. God says he knows your heart and will do what you desire, but you already know that. If you need me for anything (I mean anything!) dont hesitate. You are an amazing woman and Im so glad we are friends...I love you! Scholanda
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