Today, Lil Will is 8 months old. Lil Will's Tia Melinda suggested that every month on the 28th, we should release balloons corresponding to the month until his first birthday. So, today, William & I released 8 balloons in his honor. Each of these balloons contain a picture of Lil Will, his blog site and his budded and blossomed dates. Our prayer is that whomever God wants to find these balloons is touched by our story. Maybe a scripture reference will help them, a prayer will give them the strength they need to make it. We are certain God knows exactly what they will need.
This morning during devotion, it was kind of hard for me. I was filled with so many emotions. I remembered what I thought our life would be like right now this time last year. My lil boy would be 8 months old, probably trying to push up, getting ready to walk, saying dada or mama. Oh the plans we make but there is only one who can plan for us. He is our risen Lord and Saviour. BUT, we are human and we cannot help ourselves. We have to plan, we have to be in control. The truth of the matter is, no one has control. We have to surrender our lives to the Lord, allow Him to plan our lives. So, today, like everyday we ended our devotion with a prayer, all I could do was thank the Lord for planting Lil Will in our lives. Oh, yes, I do hurt for him, I ache to hold him near me, to kiss those lips and cheeks but at the same time, I know that God has a perfect plan for our lives and He never, ever, makes mistakes. The past 15 months have been His perfect will for mine & William's lives. Am I human, yes! I do want it all to go away and to have my sweet angel here with me but that is not His will. So, today, I am still standing on His promises that He wants us to be fruitful and multiply. I know He will bless us with a little sister or brother for Lil Will. He told us a few months ago, that He wanted us to have more children to not allow the past 6 months to scare us. He does not give us a spirit of fear. He told us He will continue to walk with us, if we would continue to be obedient to Him. We know the promises He has made to us. We trust you, Father. We love you and we know that you are holding us in the palm of your hands!
Sequita & William--I'm sure Lil Will was enjoying your celebration of his birthday; the beautiful balloons which would be a special gift to the one/ones who were blessed to receive it! You were the "one and only parents" who could love Lil Will the way you did! God in his sovereignty always knows exactly what He is doing---even though what we may experience doesn't always bring us joy.
ReplyDeleteWhat a special way to remember and celebrate Lil Will's life by the sharing of your story and God's Word to the receipient of a balloon! As you both continue to release your real emotions and thoughts---God will strengthen you as each new day is given to you. Know that we are here to be what you need us to be as you continue to release the pain and loss on your path to becoming stronger in your faith and how God will use you to be the voice and heart for others who have travelled down a similar road.
Happy Birthday, Lil Will! We love you and look forward to sharing your next monthly birthday through the expressions of love for you by your mom and dad!!! Sis. Joshua
That was so touching and it ministered to me on a level that was amazing. I am going to be visiting it often. I could relate to the fear about having another baby. It took me 4 years to finally say "okay I want another baby after Jay. And then to have complications during my pregnancy with Damaya and then her complications at birth. Yet I trusted "Our Friend" and I am so over joyed!!!! I was privately wondering if you guys wanted more children... now I know. And I did not experience what you did but for what I went thru I feel blessed 100 times so I KNOW you will be blessed ever more than me. I love how openly you two share your suffering, your struggle, your triumphs, your relationship with each other and with "Our Friend." Please know I am so blessed by your son and his journey. His obedience was so pure and innocent, undefiled and incorruptible. What a testimony!! I can only hope that I can be obedient to death as your beloved precious Lil Will. I didnt know him but I cant help but to love him and miss him... He touched my heart with his spirit and love for "Our Friend" and Father, God Almighty!
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-His praise shall always be in my mouth.
Very nice way to remember him....God is really using you both to minister to more people than you will ever realize.
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Love, Belinda
You guys are amazing and such a witness to others. I found your blog on Amy Marable's site and it is such an encouragement to me and a reminder to savor each day. I'm sad I didn't get to say good-bye to you guys before I went on maternity leave, but my prayers are with you and I thank you for being such lights for God in this world.
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