Tuesday, December 21, 2010

Un-Breakable, Un-Shakeable... FAITH! TRUST!

I know alot of you are wondering and are too afraid to ask if William and I are still trying to get pregnant.......YES! We have been going to an Infertility specialist since early August. He is the most awesome doctor, he shoots straight from the hip whether is stings or not. We appreciate his honesty. We each went through a battery of test, all things checked out, great, except of course, I am OLD and so are are my eggs! Aargh! I had a procedure in August, in laymen terms, to make sure there was no blockage and to clean out my tubes, the chance of getting pregnant after this procedure is done per our doctor increases chances to get pregnant tremendously. It worked, William and I conceived but we had a miscarriage in September, we were 6 weeks pregnant. WOW! Why would God do this to us again, another child gone. I can be honest, the thought crossed my mind for a split second. The one thing we have to do is always be honest with God! If you are angry, tell Him, hurt cry on His shoulder, He is our father, He wants to supply our needs, help us through hurts, He is always there for us! If you have questions, ask Him. I remember hearing people say when I was younger not to question God but I have learned over the past two years, if you do not understand, it is OK to cry out to Him, the key is, once you have done this and He answers, do not dwell there, you have to accept it and move on. After, I asked my question about my miscarriage, MY daddy (God) quietly whispered in my ear, in MY time, my dear child, I have plans for you.. Did my hurt go away immediately, NO, I (we) grieved our loss but I(we) knew all was not lost! God is still in control, He is sovereign! William and I still believe He has a plan for our lives and we are open to all options, donor eggs and possibly adoption. We are continuing to be patient and wait for God to tell us what our next move is. The one thing we know for sure is that our Father loves us, He cherishes us, and He will never ever give us more than we can bear. His will shall be done in our lives, in His time! We have to trust Him! So, whatever storm some of you reading this may be in right now, trust Him, do you trust Him? if you do trust Him, let it go, whatever it is, give it to Him, He will work it out! We love you and pray God's abundant blessings in your lives today and always.

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